Hey guys,
I just wanted to address something really as I know many will wonder why. On the 22nd of June I took the decision to log off Facebook, 6 days a go when you read this blog.
I suffer with depression and it’s one big rollercoaster for me, some times I’m good, other times I’m a bit up & down and other times I’m really low. I’ve battled depression since I was around 16 years old but maybe younger. My depressive states can last days, weeks or months. Unfortunately unless you really know me you won’t realise because I’ve suffered so very long I hide my downs incredibly well from the average person.
Going back to social media, I’m normally active on Facebook, Instagram and twitter, it’s a place for me to talk & reach out when I’m alone. Six days a go I logged out of Facebook but did not deactivate, I am still active on Instagram who doesn’t love a picture of a cute cat?! As for twitter I have to be honest it’s my favourite social media I can interact with people who I don’t know who don’t know me, I can simply be invisible at times and I like that. I’ve been on twitter a long time and I’ve some great friends who are always there for a chat or a talk of a memory, like “do you remember 4 years ago when we stayed up watching football together via twitter” and laughing the funny this is he’s a Man City fan but we get on!
Which brings me on to Facebook and how what why. I placed a black picture with “off line” to show everyone. I was getting up logging on to Facebook looking at everyone’s pics & statuses and then going about my day and back looking again after I was a lone and it often made me sad. The last 12 months in particular my life has really changed and I need a lot of help I can not do anything without someone weather through my physical disability or my anxiety. I see people I’ve been friends with having great memories and I sit and think why don’t we catch up any more, why can I not just be loving life like them. It was really affecting my mental health.
Social media affects many people’s mental health and I had to take the decision to remove my self for a while I don’t know how long for. Self care is SO important for everyone but if you suffer with depression, isolation Facebook can be a dangerous place to be.
I hope you understand and I hope that you To will have the courage to log out if your struggling with social media it’s both great and dangerous.
Vicky xx
