Hey guys,
Apologises for uploading twice today but it’s Mother’s Day here in the uk and I guess I needed to just write about my mum.
For those of you that are new around here and don’t know my mum was called Sue and she was my best friend.
My mum sadly died on August 20th 2008 so 11 years ago. She died of throat cancer but had a long battle with blood cancer for 15 years. It was the secondary cancer that killed her. Mum choose to go into a hospice sadly my mum couldn’t talk in the end but she could write and she did many a notebook was written.
I was in my early 20s when mum died and I won’t lie it was the hardest time of my life, I had been reluctant to go and see her but was eventually persuaded. I had seen my mum on the 19th August (she died in the early hours of the 20th) I’ll never forget my last words, see you tomorrow, I didn’t think she not be there the next day, I knew she was dying but I saying “bye” scared me incase it was the final time. The one regret I had was I never said love you, it wasn’t something we said but I knew she loved me & I loved her more than anything.
Mother’s Day is always a difficult day for me, she was my mum and now I don’t get to celebrate her with her. I’ve cried many a Mother’s Day since.
On this Mother’s Day I’ve sat and thought about what she say to me after the passed 12 months. She’d say I’m glad your living your life but she’d be buzzing that I had lots of new friends! My mum promoted friendship to me she’d tell me, life’s no good without friends vicky, and she’s right, she was always right!
Blood cancer takes away so many people and tears families apart. My mum was lucky enough to have tried many “new” drugs from trials and such which gave us precious time, to make memories with her that are special, mum hated having her picture taken so if your mums like that too get some shots they will be so precious one day.
Finally mum, you are my hero, my angel in heaven, my best friend I’ll never forget you and wish you was here every day because you’d soon tell me what todo. Thank you for getting me through my initial years when it was just you & me with my broken heart, we got through together.
If your lucky enough to still have you mum around give them a call or a hug today because you won’t get that time back.
Vicky xx
