Morning all,
Just like that we are at Christmas Eve! December has flown by, but today’s not a review of December but it’s a day of remembering loved ones, who are no longer with us or live far away, so grab a tissues!
For me the next few days are particularly difficult as I miss my family & loved ones so very much.
My lovely uncle Andy and Shereen & Trisha all live in Canada and my two cousins both have children now too. Uncle Andy hasn’t been home for Christmas for 5 long years and this time of year I particularly miss him, in saying that I wish my uncle & girls a fantastic Christmas, lots of love from England xx
We then turn to the people who are sadly no longer with us and my heart aches for them this time of year, I’m typing this with tears in my eyes, what I’d do to have 1 more big family Christmas with them.
I have lost both my mum & grandparents at different times in my life, my mum died 10 years ago and grandad 19 years ago and nan 2 years ago. They made Christmas for me every year.
My mum even when I left home would ring me up on Christmas morning saying happy Christmas when are you coming over! She always loved Christmas she’d Always have the tree up and the house decorated on 1st December she just loved it! As a kid we’d open some gifts In the morning then ring nan and grandad to say happy Christmas and more excitedly when are you coming over, they were always ready to come over! My Nan always seemed to do the sprouts and grandad was with me and peter when he was born playing with our toys! My mum ran to a schedule Christmas Day! We ate at midday and had a huge feast! We then had about an hour while dad did the washing up! Then mum & nan would get starting on Christmas tea, when grandad was alive I’d go for a little walk with him but after he passed away I’d help mum & nan to sort out tea, this was a big Christmas team with lots of different food, we could help ourselves!
Around 6pm my house would fill up with aunty pol, uncle Charlie, Carolyn and Chris for part 2! We ate and me and Carolyn would pass everyone’s gifts out we’d all open and thank each other. From about 9 everyone went home and I’d often just chill with my mum and fall asleep before the Boxing Day craziness!
After grandad died everything stayed the same except I didn’t go for a walk, my heart aches as I miss him, he was my inspiration my role model my precious grandad how I miss you.
After my mum died, the Christmas of 2008 the first year without her, everything really stayed the same, only I did the Christmas tea with my brother. When we sat in the circle to hand out gifts it really hit that she was really gone, it was the hardest time and tears were shed. After that we never did Christmas like mum did it was just so hard and it didn’t feel right without her.
After my nan died the magic of Christmas died for me, my close nit family that brought me up that brought the magic to Christmas for me were gone, ever since I’ve not had a Christmas tree at home and just about get through the Christmas period emotionally.
Finally I wasn’t going to but I decided to, I never got to spend Christmas with my biological dad, so I have no memories of him at Christmas but I always think of him and wish we’d have had 1 Christmas together, he is after all my daddy.
On that note, I wish all my family & friends a great Christmas and I hope you have a great time. Hold your loved ones a bit tighter and enjoy these special days.
Remember though not everyone is happy at Christmas and a text or a message on social media could just give your friend a smile they need to get through a dark day.
Vicky xx
