good evening!
A week on Wednesday (18th April) it’s a big day it’s my annual heart appointment although it’s been 2 years since I saw a cardiologist!
I know I have to be there for 11am for my echocardiogram which I have had more times than I’ve had hot dinners! In its simplist form it’s an ultrasound on your heart and it’s really cool to see your heart beating and bumping away.
I will then meet my cardiologist a lady for the first time and what’s going on.
You’d think after 33 years, 1 BT shunt, 1 open heart surgery and 1 cardiac catheter I’d be use to hospitals and seeing my team and the tests, but every year I get so nervous on the build up, I often cry!
This time of course is different it’s the first time 15 years I will see a new team, no more Fiona or prof deansfield it’s like starting a fresh and now I’m sat crying typing this blog because I don’t know this consultant and I’m a sensitive soul and I’m so scared of things not being ok.
I always imagined that when it happened I’d have prof and Fiona by my side they became like family to me after my mum passed away and I got rheumatoid, now it’s just me on my own and I don’t know how I will cope without them, it’s so scary.
Vicky xx
