As I was scrolling through my social media memories I came across a post that said I’d had rheumatoid for 10 yeasts, unbelievable!
My life has changed so much in that time. I mean I’ve lost my mum & nan for a start. I’ve travelled within Europe and I’ve changed as a person.
I look at my life back before diagnosis and now February 2018 and try and think of positives, becoming disabled made me really take stock of my life. Pre diagnoses I never had time to in my mums words “experience life” I had my head stuck in a book or working on things that I forgot to have fun. Don’t get me wrong I don’t regret but I do look back now with some regrets like not staying in touch with friends or having time to make new friends. On top of that I missed out on doing things like spend time with my mum & family as a whole and never got round to that world trip .. I was too busy and I let relationships slip and I regret that too.
But
Now I look at me now I’m becoming better at accepting my situation but I do still cry about it. I started to enjoy little things like spending time with family & friends and making precious memories.
I went to my first concerts since becoming disabled and my first music festival had a great time, why didn’t I do it sooner?
I now attend football regularly which I never did when able, which I do regret but life was busy & hectic
I’ve managed To do some traveling which I’ve really enjoyed, even flown on my own!
But mostly I’ve managed to make friends and kept in contact with them, which is huge for me.
Being disabled for me has been really hard to get my head around and it’s plunged me into depression & anxiety but I’m not ashamed of that I’ve had to over come some really tough things in the past 10 years that most people experience in later in life or at least more spread out!
I’m just thankful for all the happy memories I’ve been able to make in the past 10 years
Vicky xx
