I was once a happy and independent person, then things started going wrong, I lost my mum and then my nan. I was hit by rheumatoid arthritis and that lead to being in a wheelchair full time. On top of that I experienced some awful things during enjoying my past time.
Then one thing lead to another.
Depression 
This is the first part of my story I’m not scared or ashamed to admit I suffer depression and have depressive states more often than not. They come in waves I become really tearful and just see sadness nothing can cheer me up even united winning! I also start retreating from my friends and social media. I also find it difficult to enjoy thing or even think coherently all I can see and think is negative. I also sleep a lot I just don’t want to get up. I turn my picture black on social media and those that know me well know that I’m having a tough time I find that easier you see than saying I need help. Fighting depression has been really tough but I’m learning to recognise the signs.
I’m lucky I have friends who can notice it and often just msg to say you ok vicky that means so much to me. But also friends who don’t give up on me I’m so thankful.
If you are suffering depression reach out it really helps to talk to friends, family or a doctor. I’m lucky my doctor is very supportive.
Anxiety 
I started suffering anxiety after a state of bullying and I’ve got to be honest anxiety has been the hardest for me to cope with.
For me anxiety makes me think the worse is going to happen 24/7 and I have to live with this constantly it doesn’t go like depression. I am literally scared of everything, life the world is very scary to me. Even pavements make me worry, even telephone conversations make me worry because I don’t know what is going to said which panics me.  Planning my weeks helps me to control my anxiety to some respects but things go wrong and that stresses me out.
Anxiety is no joke and ruins lives. If you suffer anxiety reach out to your doctor.
Keep strong and if you know someone suffering just say hi it’ll help.

Vicky xx