Dear mum,
Today is the day I dread every year, it’s the day you passed away, this year it’s 10 years how have you been gone just so long. You died aged 46 now your 56 you should still be here with me.
When you passed away I was so sad but I some how kept going. All I’ve ever wanted was to make you proud but most importantly live my life making memories for you.
I promised you when peter was older I’d take him to old Trafford to see united play and I did mum, I took him and he’s even seen us lift a trophy because I wanted him to make memories too.
I promised you I’d finally get off my ass and see the world one place at a time and I have .. I’ve loved every minute of it, I’ve seen places I use to say one day I’ll visit as a youngster. I’ve enjoyed seeing the world & doing it with the best people, but I wish you’d have been here to hear all about my adventures.
I’ve been to live music gigs & even a festival! Well that took me by surprise as well lol but I’ve enjoyed every single one of them, I am sure you can imagine me & Carolyn singing together at a gig, thankfully the music is louder than us!
I’m still a little bookworm mum I just love a book, but I try not to get too stuck in so I let life pass me by.
I’ve made many new friends from around the world, i actually have friends mum that care about me, I never really understood friendships until I made the effort to have friends.
I still go to football, you know I just let go and enjoy it, the old heart beats a bit quicker!
My heart is good, oh mum I wish you was here to see me reach the big milestone of 29 years post surgery .. who’d have thought it mum and I’m going to make 30 years next year as I’ve not got to go back til I’m 35!
I’ve tried to embrace rheumatoid tackle it and it’s challenges head on, with my head high, with courage and determination to carry on living my life.
We’ve welcomed 10 second cousins into the family in 10 years … you’d love them all.
Today has been a sad day because it’s a real milestone being motherless for 10 years. But I spent the morning with Carolyn and the Williams sisters ( M&M) they made me laugh and smile. I listened to a podcast from the game yesterday and that made me smile too.
I’d give every experience I’ve had these past 10 years back just to be back In your arms though mum.
So mum I best stop writing here, because I’m starting to tear up thinking of everything you’ve missed everything we could have done together apart from travel as that wasn’t your thing.
To the next 12 months of new adventures, friendship and hope making you proud mum. You was right life is no fun on your own mum I’m glad I have friends.
I hope you, nan & grandad are together up in the clouds and having a drink for everything we’ve all achieved in these 10 years.
Until we meet again mum. I love you and miss you
Your tricky vicky xx
